Ep45 The Paralysis of Genius: Why Your Brilliance Might Be Keeping You Stuck at Zero

Patricia Lindner 0:00

There is this point of stuckness in everyone. Sometimes we do not even know what it's about. How could people identify what it is? Because it is not being lazy, as we figure out with you, as we figure out with me, we are both doing the work. It is this being paused by internal override, like your body doesn't feel safe doing the next step.

Jason Croft 0:26

What if the key to unlocking your full potential isn't about adding more, but revealing what's already there? In each episode of magnificence, host Patricia Lindner guides you to reveal your natural brilliance, remove what's been stopping you and reconnect to your authentic power. Join us as we explore how to access the magnificence that lives within us all.

Patricia Lindner 0:51

Hello and welcome to another episode of magnificence. In this episode, we are talking about a painful yet very common experience of many of us, and that is, you've checked all the boxes you have, all the credentials, you've done, all the work. You're so ready, and you love money flowing into your bank account, but yet you feel stuck. Somehow it feels like you are procrastinating. You are over thinking, and you don't have the success that you would love to have. And I totally like that. Jason calls it sitting in zero, and that is why I especially love that, Jason, you are sitting with me in this episode, as we are talking about this strange and painful state when you know that you are so amazing, you're brilliant, you are magnificent, and I know that you are yet there is something that is holding you back to have it all. Is there anything you would love to say about that? Jason, yeah,

Jason Croft 2:02

this is definitely definitely one that is hits close to home. For me, I feel like I have been sitting in that for so long. And to me, it's always that difference of like knowing and believing, like I know all the stuff, what's what's the block somewhere between here and here, right, keeping the keeping it from coming into being. So I'm excited for this one,

Patricia Lindner 2:34

and just what you said, because for this episode, I really set deep with this topic, because I think it is so important for many of us, especially those who are self employed entrepreneurs, who have some amazing things to bring to the table, to make an impact. And yet there is something blocking their success and their impact. And I think that is both. Both are so important to have the success and also to make this impact with everything that you can do for others. And so I really prepared some stuff. That is why I might look down, because there is so much that I could say about and you said there is this disconnect between you knowing it and you trusting, you trusting and that is what I figured out as one of the Potential root causes of this stuckness of this zero point, because I don't feel that it is like you have this so called imposter syndrome, where you're constantly doubting yourself because you totally know that you are brilliant, but it could be this subtle self doubt, and I came across that when I thought about there was no recent big success and that could put this engine going off. Oh, well, if I was so brilliant that my mind tells me all the time, why don't I see the success in my life that I desire, and that could lead to this subtle, a little bit mean, self doubt that is keeping you from fully believing in how magnificent you are. I don't know if this rings true.

Jason Croft 4:39

Yeah, that's interesting, because it, I could see that have that initial thought and that that's something that will just spiral, and especially if you weren't consciously thinking that thought that you just said, but if it's if it's down in inside, you. If you judge the world that way, right? Like, oh, if somebody knows what they're doing, they have these results, then obviously you're at some level, you're going to apply that to yourself. The something's wrong, something's off. If you know what to do and you're not doing it, I think that's, that's a piece that is really interesting. I was thinking about last night, actually, was, I think the more you know what to do and learn this stuff, rather than just sitting on the couch do whatever I don't know why I'm not successful, you know when you know and you learn and you want to and you don't. That's the biggest like disconnect and place for stress. Yeah, 100% 100%

Patricia Lindner 5:53

and when you said that, you know a lot, and I know that especially very committed, very intelligent people like yourself, they are dealing with this stuckness somehow, because it is also about could be like that. That might sound weird, but it could be like you are knowing so much and you have so many ideas and so much knowledge that it might become really complex and even overwhelming when it comes to taking the next steps. And then I might even call it paralysis of genius, because there are so many things that you could do and that you know about the technical side, and

Jason Croft 6:47

that's what I'm gonna call it from now on, that's for sure. Yeah, I'm a, I'm such a genius that it's caused this paralysis. That's that's exactly how I'm gonna describe it for me, I'm

Patricia Lindner 7:01

so glad that two root causes apply to what you are going through when you are at this point where you can't stand that you are in this place of stuckness. Then I think it is much better if you talk about that, then you have this thoughts, these thoughts coming up that come across in some sentences or a phrase that wants you to take the next step.

Jason Croft 7:39

Yeah, and and to give folks some background, I guess on me, since it's all about me today, no since, since we are diving into my painful situation in life, number one that context is that I have done so much work and introspection and getting help and and I'm open, just like today in this conversation. So I think that's important to point out, because if I answer anything as we go along to it's just like, Yeah, I don't think that's it like, it's because I've sat in that and really considered that a lot and had this answer like, oh, there is some truth here. Oh, there isn't. And back to your, your question of that feeling, there is a drive, a work ethic. I've had it since I was a little bitty child, of selling things on the side of the road and wanting to make money. And my values up there, having that work ethic is top that's what I admire in people. That's what I admire in myself when I have it, and I've had some level of it forever. Now, of course, we're a product of our environments, right? I know my grandparents were, they worked their butts off, right? And they rewarded that. I spent a lot of time with my grandparents, you know, all summers and all of that stuff, you know, grown up and so that's certainly a reinforced thing. And I, in getting to your point, I think there, there is some you can go too far with that, for sure. But I also, I do hold that in high regard, you know, not being lazy, having a good work ethic. And yeah, you've heard me say that phrase to myself, which is like, Come on, dude, do the work. Just come on. You know what to do. Just do it. Let's go. Because I do know. Again, it's up here. I know what to do. Just why am I not doing. Doing it. What is that?

Patricia Lindner:10:01

Wow, that is. It's so big what you just shared. And thank you for talking about your grandparents and this work ethic that you have, because that gives me another opportunity to talk about something. And I totally thought about you when I thought about this root cause, it's this identification with doing stuff, especially for those who have this work ethic and who are not lazy at all. And it's, it's so beautiful that this goes together with this sentence of, Hey, come on, dude, do the work. Just do the work. Do it. You have this high work ethic, and you are not lazy at all. And you started doing that as a child when you sold something on the road. I think that is this maybe invisible pattern, and maybe that comes from somewhere, and it's not really bad, but it says if you and it's all about linear, I just realized that if you do not earn X amount of money, or you don't have X amount of clients, then you are lazy, then you are not doing the work. And that is why this internal pusher, I call this voice, the internal pusher, comes onto the stage and tells you, hey, come on, do the work. And I think here is the gold, Jason, because you just said it, I have this high work ethic. I've done so much. I'm a committed person. I know how to do the work. And then this voice shows up that says, Come on, dude, do the work. Hey, hey, and you had a different voice. Frequency and tonality when you said that. And it was really sharp, and it was really, um, infused with a little bit of hey, you need to be ashamed, or you need to feel guilty for not having this result or that result. And I think that is so interesting, because when people and I think that's not you, that's me as well, and that so many people do the work, and then this voice comes up that is so infused with guilt or shame, then we fall down into this frequency that we might have experienced as a child of feeling guilty for something or not being enough, not doing enough. And then this low frequency, of course, it keeps you from being successful, from doing all the work, from being consistent in putting things out, because you feel like, Oh, I can't do it. So I'm so lazy, I'm missing out on something. And I think softening that pushing or even a little bit punishing voice would be an interesting step that you might consider. And everyone who has this voice saying something different, but in general, saying something like your voice does, it could be so interesting to ask this voice about their intentions. And if you're familiar with journaling, then you could write it down what this inner pusher has as an intent, as an intention. Because, let's just say there is a good intention for this inner pusher to say that to you, and then you can rape reply back from a different perspective, from this wise one inside of you that knows why you are hesitant, or why you are not ready to take the Next step, or why it takes so long, or why there is some misalignment, whatever it is, just like creating this conversation on paper between the pusher and Not, not pushing this pusher aside, but really seeing this voice for what it wants to protect you from why it is there, because there is a reason why it is there. So acknowledging this voice and also looking at it from a different perspective to. Soothe this guilt infused or shame infused situation. And there is one part in you and in all the other people and in myself that knows better. There is this wise part that is much more gentle and soft with all of that

Jason Croft:15:21

for sure, and this is going to be one of those that you know, after this, I sit with and even do exactly what you say. I think there's, there's a little bit of pushback in me, only in that I feel like I've done that as well of okay, just, I'm okay, you know, I'm enough there, there's, you know, there's, it's okay. I'm open to what I need to do if, if it's nothing, and, hey, just tell me, right, if it's, I've been op I've had that, and I think that's the the initial pushback to to that, that comes out, yeah, and I certainly acknowledge too, that probably this specific way. And going deeper, there's something different here and in support of what you're talking about, too, I have, I did something similar within the last year that the audience might might find interesting in that to can speak to exactly what you're talking about in analyzing my beliefs, values and all of that. It was interesting because I realized I did have this very strong value that if like, you can't be a good father and unsuccessful. Broke, not provide at the same like you can't. And I was like, Oh, that's interesting, that I feel that way. Yeah, I do feel that way. Okay, that's interesting, you know, like, okay, yeah, that's, that's one of my true core beliefs. But I also then sat with it and I stayed in it. And is that really true? Is there an example of a father who hasn't made it? Yeah, quote, unquote, and successful financially, and is a great father, you know what? Yeah, you know there probably is, right? And so I was able to pull those things apart, as those are two separate things, two things that I want, but I want to be financially successful, I and I want to be a great father, but I was meshing them all together, and I think this could be a piece, a very similar exercise, and that of kind of pulling those things apart.

Patricia Lindner:18:14

Yeah, yeah, absolutely. And what else came to my mind, because maybe I could just share some things that it is not Jason's issue. I think it is Jason's issue. There is Patricia's issue, and there is everyone else's issue that is on the market and that has a business. I think everyone deals with that, and I think that is the truth, that is really the truth, and I want to stand for that, because everything else is just a really big lie. No one is only successful, and there is this point of stuckness in everyone, and sometimes we do not even know what it's about. And just in preparation of this episode, I thought about, how could people identify what it is? Because it is not being lazy, as we figured out with you, as we figure out with me, we are both doing the work. And I think everyone else, or not everyone else, not everyone, is doing the work, but lots of people are doing the work. And I thought it is this, I need to so I want to really call it. What I came across it is this being paused by internal override, like your body doesn't feel safe doing the next step, and how could you figure out why there is this internal override when maybe pushing or maybe not knowing what to do next? And I tried out. I really, really. Life tested this exercise, which brought me some fabulous, interesting insights, and I want to share it here, because maybe only this could be gold for anyone listening to this episode, you just take your cell phone and record a three minute message unedited, just right now. Or maybe so you pause the episode and do it right now, or you do it afterwards, but don't think too much about it, and you say, Why am I not taking the next step, what is, what is blocking me? And then you start the recording, and you talk and you talk and you talk, and maybe you talk about things that you didn't even think about. That's at least what came up for me, I lost, what what came up for me? And then you can analyze it yourself, because things will stand out that you didn't even think about, and you will come to such amazing insights that are provided in this unedited three minute message to yourself. You don't have to share that. Of course, what you could do is you could let an artificial intelligence analyze it for what is going on and why you are stuck in this zero point. And for me, it was this not being ready to fully take a break and pause, because when things are going on in your life, and that is one of the root causes for me, or it was one of the root causes for me, where I thought, I'm not magnificent when I don't have all the Amazing successes in my business while moving a house, while dealing with some health issues, while being in some conversations with my future ex husband, and it felt like, oh, loser, you can't do the next step in your business. But Isn't it magnificent to handle all those things and to not hide completely, but just to be present and not have those millionaire successes and just figuring out, oh, oh, that's what was blocking me from taking this next Step of being more successful and of scaling the business, because you only have this certain amount of energy that you can bring into or can put into your business. And that was a major realization. I'm not lazy, I'm not unintelligent, I'm not not doing all the work. It's just my energy is so spread all over the place, and it's time to see that and to be ready to take this break or pause and then continue once the things are done. When the moving thing is over, I can go fully in again. So just this voice memo of three minutes when you do not edit, it could be so helpful to figure out why you are where you are. You

Jason Croft:23:43

Yeah, yeah. I think, I think doing both of those like we I think we've heard that version of and you mentioned it earlier, like the journal version, but I think there's different things that happen in each of those like and I think this voice version will help you not stop and not edit yourself as much. So I really, I like that. And also, just depending on who you are, one's going to feel more natural and flowing. It's either write that or to say it out loud. I really like that. That's, that's, that's interesting, the insights you got from that, that feedback. I'm anxious to try that, and I want to acknowledge too, if maybe this will help clarify, when you started that you talked about the the override, the energetic, kind of override that you're feeling. And that's that is one of the most baffling things that I've encountered, knowing what to do, wanting to do it, going to do it. And I mean, at a I mean my body, I can't stay awake. My body. Middle of the day, you know, and shutting down, like you talk about an override, and just being baffled, like I can't even it's like everything in me is like stopping me from doing that, and it is the most baffling experience in all of this.

Patricia Lindner:25:20

So with this, and I needed to look at my notes, because what you just said, I called it creativity. Hi, checked by survival. When you are deprived of sleep, creativity goes away. And when there is so much going on in your life, how could you How could you bring to the table what you want to bring to the table when this is like the 3d reality of real life and so many things are going on, and you keep yourself awake to do the work, how could you be fully aligned and creative in that, and what you said also made me think of another thing, like being energetically burned out because you are not aligned. And that might sound a bit Woo, but those of you who watched or listened to the first, I don't know, 30 episodes of magnificence, the old version, so 1.0 I do a lot of work with human design and the gene keys. And when you are not aware of your energetic blueprint of how your energetic wiring exactly is, and how you could get the most out of that. Oftentimes you are swimming against the energetic stream, or you are wired in a way that is not the best for your relationship, for your health or for your success, I highly recommend figuring out what that looks like, and when you see, oh, that's me. That's how I'm wired. That's my um, energetic flow, and it is scientifically, scientifically based, for sure, then you will figure out how to get over some blockages that might come from exactly not knowing who you are energetically. And I just had someone reach out yesterday who is highly professional and highly successful in her business, and she said, Hey, I might want to come back with a human design chart or gene keys reading, because I need to take the next step. And I feel there is something misaligned. Let's look at that. And that's something that always makes my heart sing, because that's where most of the people do not look at to figure out a solution.

Jason Croft:28:07

Yeah, and I think even if you haven't gone down that road at all, just in our everyday language, you can, you can feel that that's how we describe it, right? Like, I just don't feel aligned. I don't feel like I feel like something's off. I feel like, so even if you haven't, you know, learned about and gone through any of human design, G key, any of that that has, you know, language to it. I think we've all felt it. If we sit there for a little bit and go, oh yeah, that is the feeling. It's, it's like I'm pushing against something, or I'm just out of sorts and and there's not that, that alignment, whatever that is for you, sometimes it's, it's figuring out, what are my what are my values, or maybe I'm working against my values. At some level, maybe it is how I'm wired, and I'm pushing against that. So I think it's so

Patricia Lindner:29:09

valuable. Yeah, 100% yes to that. And we could even go a little bit more, ooh, for some people, but I would love you to just consider that this might open up flood gates of new energy for you and for your next steps. There, everything is energy, and just figuring out where the lake is or where you are not aligned, and that could be through many other ways, not just gene keys and human design, then I would be happy to help you go there so that you do not have to feel, Oh, I'm so lazy. I am constantly in. Procrastination mode, because I just tell you that's not true. There is something else going on, and we can figure that out definitely.

Jason Croft:30:10

Yeah, so what's the what's the prescription here? For for me, for folks, for

Patricia Lindner:30:17

I love that you called it prescription. Makes me feel like Dr Patricia. So I think the first thing is pausing without feeling guilty for that. And if it's just 24 hour pause or break, just pausing and just doing one of the exercises that would be so helpful, just doing this audio recording and analyzing or doing the journaling exercises that I talked about, and then maybe you can go from there, because you revealed something That was invisible to you without this pause or this break, you will spin in this circle over and over again, and there is no resolution. So that is what I highly recommend as a first step. And if you desire to go deeper, and that is a heartfelt invitation, then we could look at some patterns, energetic patterns, any blockages, any influences from ancestral inheritance, or some memories that might be in your system. I'm happy to help everyone with that, because in such a beautiful episode. And Jason, I am so grateful for your vulnerability and openness to share some things about what you experienced or experience, because that helps people identify with, oh yes, that's me as well, and I'm not alone. So we are in this together. And the next step after that is, let's work on that, and let's clear that so that you can stand in your power and own your magnificence.

Jason Croft:32:17

Fantastic. Well, I have some homework to do, so

Patricia Lindner:32:22

I'm off to do it. So then thank you so much for being part of this episode. Thanks for listening and watching that, and hope to see you in another episode of magnificence.

Jason Croft:32:37

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